woke up to the feeling of hunger this morning at a sickening time :(
recently i've found this addiction to Micheal Bubble (youtube his songs if u dno him)
more like since i heard his song Beyond the sea.
well anyways i was going thru another fren's blog when i read this : The pain of being single
LOL
wat a topic to start ur day wif no?
lemme start up with my own version of this.
Lets see..there are many types of em(singles) around.
the ones that got depressed and opted to be single.
the ones that were to fussy and choosy that no one met up tot heir expctations.
the i dun care if im single ones.
the ones who are still searching and hoping.
the ones who are still searching And hoping secretly.
the ones who thinks its okie cause its not the right age yet.
the ones who hook up and break up at lightning speed that somehow their life falls into the single category somesort.
the ones who do not even notice the opp gender except for their own.
the ones that Pretends to be single while they're secretly oogling over the another kid.
the ones that have a r'ship wif Chaudrasia n Guyton instead of smtg ahem* a lil more real..
in the beginning i must say i fell into one of the categories above. I've been disappointed before but it's no suprise cause not everything lasts forever i suppose. Ive just been ignoring this fact of life for so long that ive lost track of time.
since then ive talked myself in,, ive talked myself out of this having faith coming up with a million excuses and cons all the time.
And no, dun confuse me to have found someone either. I sudd have my wrecked mind thinking on the reasons why some people are so sked to be lonely and out of a r'ship. i mean it used to feel diff last time for me but now i somehow can hardly be botherd by any of these. like for some people the min they're single,, their brains goes on a man/woman hunt searching if the person fits their Dream Checklist and what not almost instantly like instead of falling in love,, it seem more like *Forcing their way into love just to fill the void in their life.seem so familiar ryte? But ever asked Why?..
i guess the ans to that is simple : Insecurity :)
the fear of remaining lonely and having meals wif a plant on the table( A very depressing scene form the movie : RED),,
the fear of never getting married,,
the fear of being left out while all your frens are busy wif their significant half,,
fear of not fitting in,,
fear of being the outkast on Valentines
fear of not feeling love and experiencing this reli Great things u see in movies and songs,,
fear of ahem* dying a virgin for some,,
and the fear list goes on and on
but den again we're humans. we were created with such emotions. the reli great ones tend to have a relationship with God instead to fill this lonely side of their life. A majority of em however then to rely on something more physical and homosapien like in nature.
the reason : Simple. We just wna find someone to share smtg wif be it happy or sad times to not feel so lonely. it cud be anyone1 just as long as u get to have a conversation wif em or have a chance to say : hey u noe wht hppned,, dotdotdotdotdot or share emotions or the ability to call someone as Mine* and to share the feelings,, or for some,, to fulfill their personal satisfaction.
also most of us tend to assume that being in a r'ship is the source of uttermost happiness :) if u look at it,, its not quite true most of the time. the mistake we do is that we tend to somehow place our happiness in other people's hand the min we get into a r'ship (which results in a high incidence of disappointment which follows up wif a malignant hate). why rely on someone else to get u gifts and love notes when u can do it ursewf?
yeahh i noe.. kinda make sense..no point relying on your other half to make u happy all the time.. somehow yet knowing this here i am falling into the not so odd thinking of the people which is to assume for someone to come along and be my get-away-car to some happy dreamylike paradise and make me feel happy*
the thing i find funny is when people tell me this : i plan to fall in love when im at __ age and so on.
heck this thing has a mind of its own!! no one can bloody plan it. it just happens*
to the most random and unexpected people.
to the ones u once tawt i wud NEVER.
to the person next door or next to you in class
its worse then rocket science cause thru out years and centuries this is the one thing everyone keeps revolving around.
like they say , once in a while in an almost ordinary life,, love comes along and gives us a fairytale.
As for me,, I'm happy with the way things are in my life right now and i wudnt wanna change it all so fast. Maybe someday later it'll turn out right but im not searching nor am i anticipating for it..
It's gonna be half timing and the other half luck (maybe a lil effort as well! lol) Like Michael Buble once said : Whenever its right, you'll come out of nowhre and into my life.
For now,, My life is Perfect. Maybe someday later perhaps...?
I know I just havent met you yet :)
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